What am I telling myself I'm supposed to be doing?
And then, I realize that's it, all of these shoulds.
I should be working this way or
I should be saving this much money or etc.
Those are all shoulds and those are things that I realize have kind of kept me from
being in my natural essence, whether it's like pressures from myself or
pressures from society or my school, my job, whatever it is.
I just labeled it as shoulds.
And so even putting that onto the canvas was hard, because I still felt pressured.
I was like, how do I put that?
How can I show?
What should I do?
What should I do?
And so in the end, I actually accidentally dropped some brown for the s at first.
At first I'm like, God.
Well, now I guess I'm doing it.
So I kind of just let myself do what I was thinking.
And I kind of got out of my head space and
I just put it onto the paper, onto the canvas.
And so, as you can see, it's kind of awkward and
it's smushed because it's pressured.
And then somehow magically, I was thinking I need to find a balance between